Have you ever wanted to try something, a new medium of art, a new genre of reading material, a new sport, pull off a different style of clothing or shoes, or even wanted to live in a different part of the city? Have you ever felt that pull, that desire to expand further then where you’re standing now, but didn’t take a step further cause it wasn’t ‘you’? You weren’t known for those things, those things weren’t you, they perhaps belonged to someone else?
I’ve been there. I didn’t want to do photography because I had more then enough friends who were wedding photographers, I was intimidated in the kitchen because I have a friend who I like to call Martha Stewart cause she’s an awesome cook, I’ve wanted to pull off fun and fashionable clothing but didn’t dare purchase anything further then classic basics as I wasn’t a fashionista.
I felt the pull, the desire to be bigger then myself. I’m sure I am not alone. I am tired of living inside of the box I created for myself. Tired of only expecting ordinary from myself and want to bust those walls down. We should be living a life that we’re excited to live and inspiring others in our pursuit!
Are you with me?! Are you wanting to break out of your own walls, to be bigger then you expected? To inspire others to live an exciting life?
I was wondering, would you like to do this journey together? I would sure like some partners in crime! Let me know what you’d like to do, what walls you’d like to break down, what new thing(s) you’d like to try. I’m going to write a little mini series on what things I’m doing to live a more exciting life, and some things you can try as well!
Leave a comment or send me an email and let’s go on this journey together!
Dear Beautiful Reader,
The other day I was thinking about you, of your beautiful face illuminated by the blue screen of your computer, perhaps with a cup of coffee beside you, soaking in the words that I continue to write. I thought about how you continue to come back, sometimes lurking, sometimes leaving a comment when you feel it is most appropriate, and I can’t thank you for each time you continue to click on my blog.
We have been through a lot, you and I, and not once have you told me to “Suck it up Princess” when I’m having a rough day, or “Stop tooting your own horn” when I have a celebratory moment, you have continued to support and cheer me on despite all my rambling. You are truly my hero!
Thank you for continuing to read, send me little notes, and being there. I truly appreciate it!
PS, These flowers are for you. Thanks!
I crawled into bed and pulled the covers up tight around my face, my nose just barely peeking out so I was able to breathe. It was shallow and quick. My emotions were flooding me, almost to the point of overflowing with tears. I held them back and willed myself to sleep. Sleep came, but it felt short.
Once morning came, I didn’t want to turn on my computer, tired of feeling like everyone else’s business was cooler/better/more prosperous then mine. I decided to take a shower, it’s where I feel the most relaxed. Instead I came face to face with my emotions under the stream of water. How could I feel so defeated, so alone, and utterly useless when I’m living out one of my life dreams? I almost curled into a ball on the cold plastic floor. My stomach in knots, I pushed through and stepped out into the steam. I decided I needed a break from my everyday.
I turned off facebook.
I turned off twitter.
I only answered important emails.
I turned up music that would make me happy then I opened up the windows to allow fresh air in. And I worked and danced in my little groove. By afternoon I felt better and by evening I received some amazing emails encouragement, a long phone call with a new friend who supported me, and then a conversation with an old friend who pulled me out of my despair.
It’s easy to feel like you’re not good enough, that everyone is more amazing then you. But you need those people around you that support you and think you’re awesome sauce even when you feel like you’re not. Thank you to everyone who supports me, I truly appreciate and love each and every one of you. I wouldn’t be here without you!
A glass of rosé wine sits on the coffee table next me, enjoyed almost to it’s last sip, while I type frivolously on my laptop. So many thoughts, so many emotions; good ones, ones that set my passions on fire. I’ve been meeting and talking with so many supportive and encouraging women that I feel I need to pass it on.
I was recently talking with a friend about her business, about where she wanted to take it, a particular dream she had for it. But before she would continue to dream she said “But I would never dare to do it”. Before her dream had a chance to grow, to become anything more then a thought, it was crushed.
I can’t count the amount of times I’ve been in the same position, not even daring to dream. Cause who knows how people will respond and I’ll end up falling right on my face, in front of everyone to see. How embarrassing! But to be honest, I wouldn’t be here, a boudoir photographer in the Netherlands, if I didn’t continue to dream, to take chances, even the embarrassing ones when I fall flat on my face. I’ve done it. I’ve been there.
So I encourage you continue to dream, out there, outrageous dreams. And pick a starting point, and start daring others to dream with you, cause you’ll end up somewhere even more amazing then you even dared to dream.
I sat in a cafe, flipping through the latest fashion magazine to pass time, to gain some inspiration. Flip, ‘ohh!’. Flip, ‘hmm not my style’. Flip, ‘ohhh I like her shoes!’. Flip. I stop. Right in front of me is a part of my life that I want to see come true.
I sat there staring at it. I want this, sometime in my life, I want to see this come true. I quickly ripped it out of the magazine, knowing I could probably find the image online, but I needed to have it in my hands as if holding it was like owning it. I folded it and tucked it away in my purse. A few days later I found it laying at the bottom a little bit more wrinkled. I pulled it out and smiled. I want this, sometime in my life. I spread it out and showed Mister. I told him my dream, with our without the accessory of children but the blue bag was a must, I joked. He smiled at me and said we’ll make it come true.
Now it sits on my desk, as a daily reminder to me. Along with this torn magazine page I have a key on my keychain. It’s an old key from Paris. Another daily reminder to work towards my goals, to make my dreams come true. And I thought I should make an inspiration board of items and photos of things that I want to see come true in my life. And that you should too, start thinking about living your life passionately and what you want to see come from that. Look around and gather items and photos for inspiration and hang them somewhere. A daily reminder.
I’ve started mine!