Do you desire a life where you know and live your inner purpose? That instead of floating through life you know exactly what your true desires are and living to your fullest potential? Do you feel like what you are longing for is just hidden under the surface and once you discover it there will be no holding you back?
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When fear creeps up and I come face to face with it, I usually run to my bed. I crawl under the white duvet cover where it’s soft cotton wraps around my body and I can pull it all the way up over my head. I block the world out. I’ve spent many moments under the covers peering out, hoping that just this once, my fear would just leave me alone. It never does. Eventually I have to remove myself from the white sheets, set my feet on the cold ground, and face my fears.
In the next moment I grab piece of paper and make a list. A list of my fears, all of them, until I feel there is nothing left. In doing so, my breathing returns to normal, my brain starts working again, and my fears become broken down into just words.
And then, I write the opposite, the exact opposite of my fear.
I’m scared that my business will fail / My business will be successful. I won’t have a beautiful studio space / My studio space will be the prefect place to meet my new friends and where off the hook shoots will happen. Boudoir photography isn’t what people are looking for / Yea right, boudoir photos are the next best thing next to cupcakes at a wedding! I’m scared that I’m going to fall on my face while chasing this dream / Chasing this dreams is going to give me the best set of legs and wings!
I love writing lists, because I’m a list girl, but because when I write the opposite, how in the world am I supposed to be scared when I’m telling myself I will be successful chasing after this beautiful dream?!
What do you do to help face your fears? Do you go running, do you talk with a friend? If you don’t know, try out writing a list!
And because I know you really come here to look at some photos, here is a little peek at what is to come!
Last night, Mister and I laid out on our black leather couches, while the sun turned the sky a vibrant orange and red, almost the colour of fire. We relaxed into our glasses of bold Shiraz and talked about things that mattered to our heart. It was a lovely and perfect evening, just the two of us enjoying our time together.
Just before he crawled into bed, where I was reading my novel, he brought his laptop in. “I want to show you something” he said, “you’re going to cry”. And cry I did. Streams of tears fell from my eyes and pooled onto my chest. It was moving and heart wrenching.
It made me think that no matter what we’ve been given in life, we have all been put here for a purpose. We each have a gift and we have to find it to use it to it’s greatest potential. It doesn’t need to make people cry, but yes, it must make an impact on people. It make me think about what it is I’m doing to have an impact on people…life isn’t about becoming famous or having all the money in the world. No, it’s about creating a welcoming and lasting impression for people, a legacy of love, compassion, and friendship.
Grab some Kleenex, sit down, and be prepared to move:
What kind of impact and legacy do you want to have?
Have you ever wanted to try something, a new medium of art, a new genre of reading material, a new sport, pull off a different style of clothing or shoes, or even wanted to live in a different part of the city? Have you ever felt that pull, that desire to expand further then where you’re standing now, but didn’t take a step further cause it wasn’t ‘you’? You weren’t known for those things, those things weren’t you, they perhaps belonged to someone else?
I’ve been there. I didn’t want to do photography because I had more then enough friends who were wedding photographers, I was intimidated in the kitchen because I have a friend who I like to call Martha Stewart cause she’s an awesome cook, I’ve wanted to pull off fun and fashionable clothing but didn’t dare purchase anything further then classic basics as I wasn’t a fashionista.
I felt the pull, the desire to be bigger then myself. I’m sure I am not alone. I am tired of living inside of the box I created for myself. Tired of only expecting ordinary from myself and want to bust those walls down. We should be living a life that we’re excited to live and inspiring others in our pursuit!
Are you with me?! Are you wanting to break out of your own walls, to be bigger then you expected? To inspire others to live an exciting life?
I was wondering, would you like to do this journey together? I would sure like some partners in crime! Let me know what you’d like to do, what walls you’d like to break down, what new thing(s) you’d like to try. I’m going to write a little mini series on what things I’m doing to live a more exciting life, and some things you can try as well!
Leave a comment or send me an email and let’s go on this journey together!
The other day I was thinking about you, of your beautiful face illuminated by the blue screen of your computer, perhaps with a cup of coffee beside you, soaking in the words that I continue to write. I thought about how you continue to come back, sometimes lurking, sometimes leaving a comment when you feel it is most appropriate, and I can’t thank you for each time you continue to click on my blog.
We have been through a lot, you and I, and not once have you told me to “Suck it up Princess” when I’m having a rough day, or “Stop tooting your own horn” when I have a celebratory moment, you have continued to support and cheer me on despite all my rambling. You are truly my hero!
Thank you for continuing to read, send me little notes, and being there. I truly appreciate it!
I crawled into bed and pulled the covers up tight around my face, my nose just barely peeking out so I was able to breathe. It was shallow and quick. My emotions were flooding me, almost to the point of overflowing with tears. I held them back and willed myself to sleep. Sleep came, but it felt short.
Once morning came, I didn’t want to turn on my computer, tired of feeling like everyone else’s business was cooler/better/more prosperous then mine. I decided to take a shower, it’s where I feel the most relaxed. Instead I came face to face with my emotions under the stream of water. How could I feel so defeated, so alone, and utterly useless when I’m living out one of my life dreams? I almost curled into a ball on the cold plastic floor. My stomach in knots, I pushed through and stepped out into the steam. I decided I needed a break from my everyday.
I turned off facebook.
I turned off twitter.
I only answered important emails.
I turned up music that would make me happy then I opened up the windows to allow fresh air in. And I worked and danced in my little groove. By afternoon I felt better and by evening I received some amazing emails encouragement, a long phone call with a new friend who supported me, and then a conversation with an old friend who pulled me out of my despair.
It’s easy to feel like you’re not good enough, that everyone is more amazing then you. But you need those people around you that support you and think you’re awesome sauce even when you feel like you’re not. Thank you to everyone who supports me, I truly appreciate and love each and every one of you. I wouldn’t be here without you!