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  • Do you desire a life where you know and live your inner purpose? That instead of floating through life you know exactly what your true desires are and living to your fullest potential? Do you feel like what you are longing for is just hidden under the surface and once you discover it there will be no holding you back?

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As a new mum, I am faced with this question at least a couple of times a week, usually followed by “don’t lie to me” or “it’s the best thing ever, isn’t it?!”

How is motherhood.

In all honestly, I never know quite how to answer because it really depends on the month/week/day/hour/minute I’m having that can really effect my response. I want to say it’s the worst thing that has happened to me….and also say it’s the best.

Am I supposed to tell you about breastfeeding in washrooms where I have to cover my nose to mask the smell of it never being cleaned? Or the other time washing my hands in a empty public washroom she was in her pram screaming, the sound was reverberating off the faded blue walls making it sound like there were three of her, that a calmness came over me when I realized that I could leave her and no one would know she was mine. That having thoughts of leaving, running as fast as I can sounds like the best idea ever? And that I’m the worst person who ever existed.

Do you want to know the story of listening constantly to one song while pregnant, dreaming of my future babe, then dissolving into a puddle of tears when she was finally in my arms and feeling so unworthy to be called her mum? How about my internal struggle to even be called mum, or dealing with the fact that prior to becoming pregnant the idea of children would fill me with so much anxiety that now I’m still unsure how I’m supposed to love her? Or when friends say “I don’t want children” my heart says “me too!” even with her in my arms, and then again I feel like the worst person, ever.

Do you want to hear that I work hard to get her to sleep, nurse, and go to the bathroom? That if we didn’t have a schedule, I’d be dealing with a completely different child…not the calm one I have? That bringing up a babe is so.much.work? Like all parents should be sweating blood due to the commitment it takes to devote your energy to a child?

That it feels like I’m complaining when I tell you this?

Or do you want to hear about how every time she successfully sleeps through the night I feel like I should celebrate with champagne? Sleeps longer than a 45 minute nap I want to smother her in kisses? That seeing her wake up, pull her hands above her head and give a big stretch is one of the most adorable things I’ve ever seen, besides her sneezing?

That no matter how much screaming she’s done, how many tears we’ve cried, how upset I’ve gotten that I can’t seem to figure my babe out, that when she finally settles in my arms squeezing either side of my neck while resting her head on my left shoulder I feel like my heart will bust because she finds comfort in me? That each smile, girggle, coo, sigh is a major victory and I’m the best person, ever?

Or perhaps you want to know that she feels like she’s the perfect piece to complete Mister and I. But also the piece that’s making him miss him like crazy, even when he sits next to me.

So how is motherhood, you ask.

What would you like to hear?

  • April 10, 2014 - 9:16 AM

    Rebecca Sehn - This is beautiful, Lesley. It’s perfect because it’s not perfect.ReplyCancel

  • April 13, 2014 - 12:09 PM

    lily - this is beautiful. i always would like to hear the truth, the whys. so this is beautiful :) ReplyCancel

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Days spent cuddled close, staying in pajamas, listening to the rain fall against the window, and lighting a new voluspa crisp champagne candle to cast a glow across the room.

When babe is being fussy and I find myself on the verge of tears I’m thankful for the classical music that plays throughout the house while we go about our day. I love how it relaxes us and creates a softness in our home. We slow down soaking up the moment, her and I, bundled together on white sheets and soft pillows.

  • April 9, 2014 - 6:52 PM

    melissa page - thank you so much for your words — your willingness to be vulnerable and transparent. i’ve struggled with some of the same feelings and feelings of shame or embarrassment for feeling them. your honesty is refreshing. xoReplyCancel

  • April 13, 2014 - 12:03 PM

    lily - Babe is SO CUTE! :) ReplyCancel

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Yesterday while going through some blogs that I follow I read a snippet of a post that made me pause and think.

95% of your day is done out of habit.

It made me realize that the excuses I’ve been making as to why I wasn’t getting certain things done is because of the habits I’ve created in my life.

Now not all habits are bad, some are just perfect. I am a new mama, but I’ve showered, dressed, put makeup on, and combed my every day since she was born. It’s been extremely important to me that no matter what, this gets done. I’ve blocked out times in my day to tidy the house so that I don’t feel like I’m living in baby land and Mister can come home to a stress free environment (crying baby/wife excluded). And I’ve also made sure that babe and I get out at least once a day to get some fresh air, rain or shine.

However, after reading that above sentence I’ve realized that I have a habit that I need to change. Being attached to my phone.

It’s a habit that started as soon as babe was born. Whenever she would feed, sleep, or play, I would be on my phone. I think the only times I gave her my full attention would be when she needed to be changed, dressed, or bathed.

As much as my phone is my lifeline to the world around me, I realize it’s a habit I need to contain instead of letting it be apart of my life so much. I need to create habits that are more intentional in my life so that I am more present and more productive. Hence, starting today I’ll only be using my phone to be more productive (like writing this post from my phone!) then putting it away.

Design your lifestyle assignment

95% of your day is done out of habit. Can you identify a habit that you do daily that you would like to get rid of? Once you’ve identified it, see if there is a way you can benefit from it (like how I’ve used my phone to write blog posts) or eliminate it. If you need to eliminate but not able to go cold turkey (I can’t live without my phone) create blocks of time to indulge in the habit so that you control it, than it control you.

Please feel free to share your discoveries in the comments below! I would love to know what your word for 2014 is!

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  • April 13, 2014 - 12:01 PM

    lily - procastinating, and endless browsing of the feedly reader. :( now i ignore all the “unread” and try to trim down the list!ReplyCancel

I‘ve been wanting to write this post for some time, but I could never find the right words.

This time last year I started working with my own life coach, and it was one of the most amazing experiences I’ve ever had to help me push some major dreams forward. Maybe it was because we had known each other for quite some time but really it’s because she is amazing at what she does.

The reason why I decided to work with a life coach was because I knew I wanted to move forward and launch my website, but I needed to have someone outside of my family to keep me accountable. She reviled what was holding me back, what my big dream was for pushing publish, and helped me create small stepping stones to get there.

Within a month I launched my website and instantly had people asking to work with me. Talk about achieving a major milestone!

Essentially within two months of working with my life coach I had launched my business and made some significant life decisions. It was probably one of the most productive periods of my life, and I have her to thank for it.

So who I was I working with?

My life coach and dear friend is Natalia from Achieve the Impossible.

I met her over 5 years ago as one of my very first boudoir clients and that session propelled me into specializing in boudoir. We kept in touch here and there and then in 2012 she reached out to me for business advice. Our relationship grew even stronger and then she asked me to photograph her once again for her website in 2013. It was the last portrait session I took. We came full circle together.

So when I was searching for a life coach to launch my new direction in life, I knew it needed to be her. I’m wanting to do a post about what it was like to work with a coach, but that will come at a later time.

I know that some of you are looking to make some changes in your life, as I know there are still some changes I’d like to make, so that is why I’m telling you about the course Natalia is putting on.

Natalia is running a free e-course that starts April 15, 2014 that is a 14-day journey where we will spend small pockets of time every day – releasing, renewing, and making space for laughter, ease and magic.

Sometimes before you make can make big changes you need to clear the space and accept where you are, and I know Natalia can help you get there.

Natalia’s course is Free, and is a great introduction to working with a life coach.

I encourage you to register for She let go! I’m going to!

*This post is unsponsored. I will never tell you about something I don’t fully believe in. I really enjoyed my time working with Natalia and wanted to share the course with you.

  • March 26, 2014 - 9:50 PM

    Halley - Natalia is amazing! This program looks like the best.ReplyCancel


A week filled with late sleep ins and early wake up calls. No matter what, they are beautiful moments of us squinting at the morning light then staring and smiling at each other.

Each morning as we go through our morning routine I notice how Mister and I have a particular song and dance that we move to. Weaving in and away from each other, smiles, flirtatious eyes, and helpful hands. This dance particularly takes place in the kitchen and always ends with a kiss and saying good-bye for the day.

We celebrate our babe’s two month birthday by meeting together for an afternoon latte together at a cafe near his work. He takes her from the pram and holds her with such love and admiration and she willingly falls asleep in his arms. Sip after sip we enjoy our foamy lattes we discuss the little details of life and the anticipation of my upcoming birthday.

Later in the week, her and I shop along Robson and walk away with two small white sleepers for her to grow into wrapped in tissue and then placed in a white paper bag. It’s the small luxuries.

I have a couple of hours alone to myself with no babe to care for that I walk the brick lanes of Gastown and find myself thinking of Europe. A feeling buried deep within me bubbles up as I admire the architecture, that here – Vancouver, is home and so is Europe. I know I will never be able to combine the two, that no matter where I am living I will always miss the other, but I set my heart on visiting Europe as soon as we can. I pick up two white boxes filled with treats; a chocolate covered cheesecake and the other a earl gray infused sponge cake with lavender and vanilla swirl frosting. They are decadent and beautiful to look at, and sugary sweet on the tongue.

I start an evening bedtime routine that relaxes both the babe and I. Starting a warm bath the smell of vanilla and rose fill the room. She coos and smiles as she enjoys the water and our slick skin next to each other. When we step out of the bath I love seeing her pink body wrapped in a white towel and her tiny toes sticking out the end as she kicks and squirms before I apply lotion all over her. We end the routine with her at my breast, her arm thrown across her eyes in relaxation as her breathing goes deeper and deeper before I put her down for bed.

We end the week with a walk as a family through the city to select my birthday gift. It’s wrapped in tissue and placed in a box even though I know what it is. I love requesting to be pampered and the luxuriousness of the packaging. We slip into a dark restaurant with our sleeping babe in the pram next to us as we order birthday eve drinks and discuss our future holiday in London, careers opportunities and dreams, finances, feelings, and priorities. It’s a great conversation and a time to connect to one another.