The past couple of days have been difficult, for no reason in particular except that they’ve felt difficult. Not having any reason to pin point to to say I need to fix this to make me feel normal makes me feel horrible; my life is splendid and pretty much everything I’ve ever wanted it to be, I shouldn’t be feeling so down!

Blogging usually makes me feel better, so I’ve been sitting in front of my computer knowing I should blog, but I couldn’t. Opening the screen to my login page made me want to throw up. So I would just sit there staring at the black monitors, wishing that the star screen saver would come on so I would have at least something to stare at. It never did.

So today I decided I’d blog, nothing amazing or happy. Just truth. Some days are difficult. Some days can turn into more then one, for no reason at all. And I know I’ll wake up, hopefully tomorrow, knowing the difficult is gone. That there is beauty in the breakdown.