Star screen saver, please save me!

The past couple of days have been difficult, for no reason in particular except that they’ve felt difficult. Not having any reason to pin point to to say I need to fix this to make me feel normal makes me feel horrible; my life is splendid and pretty much everything I’ve ever wanted it to be, I shouldn’t be feeling so down!

Blogging usually makes me feel better, so I’ve been sitting in front of my computer knowing I should blog, but I couldn’t. Opening the screen to my login page made me want to throw up. So I would just sit there staring at the black monitors, wishing that the star screen saver would come on so I would have at least something to stare at. It never did.

So today I decided I’d blog, nothing amazing or happy. Just truth. Some days are difficult. Some days can turn into more then one, for no reason at all. And I know I’ll wake up, hopefully tomorrow, knowing the difficult is gone. That there is beauty in the breakdown.

4 comments
  • LindsayDecember 8, 2010 - 11:46 AM

    Awe, sorry to hear things are a down in the dumps but the holidays are fast approaching and things are bound to perk up.
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  • RebeccaDecember 8, 2010 - 12:16 PM

    I had a day like that this week too. Then I had a gigantic mug of coffee and felt much better. 🙂
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  • Justine ViensDecember 8, 2010 - 5:05 PM

    But but but … how could you be sad wearing TOM’s???
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  • PeggyDecember 8, 2010 - 11:50 PM

    Loving your honesty Lesley. Thanks for sharing.
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